I woke up and reached across the expanse of soft down hoping to feel you 

You weren’t there 

I breathed your name into the particles of air and light hoping to conjure you 

You weren’t there

I searched for the light brown of your eyes connecting with my soul in the silver glass

But all I saw were my own dark brown windows, seeking your light, staring back at me 

I went about my day hoping to hear your voice, feel your embrace, feel the sunshine of your smile aimed at me

I looked for you in the faces of the people I met, and in the places I went 

I listened for you, strained to hear your musical lilt through the cacophony of others

But you still weren’t there 

At night I dreamed you bestowed kisses in all of the intimate places you used to before

But when I woke, I realised it was all inside my own head…